Moving over old stuff from my facebook diary..

Today, Syd was being a bitch -as usual- and now Im left with 8 blocked contacts, a friend who's never coming back to MSN, and a , wow I dont even know how to describe the last one. But I dont get why the hell she cant just get along with people. Major. Bitch.

Today, I found out my mom's "single parent check" will go to me when Im 16... Ill get $400 a month.. I cant wait till Im 16.. Im running away.

Today, I was really starting to think abotu my future... what Im going to do, which university Im going to go to, it was really getting to me.. I cant pick something "hard" because I dont know how to succeed .. I think Ill be a lawyer.. but going to 7 years of law school isnt really appealing to me.. I think Ill be a garbage man. seriously.

Today, I realized that even when you have the best friend you can ever imagine, someone always tries to fuck it up. I hate you Ashley. Why cant you just leave her alone? stop fucking with my friends or Ill fuck with you. And I mean it.

Today, brandon broke up with me.. my friends tried to make me laugh.. but I cried.. they told jokes, but I didnt laugh.. I really thought he liked me.. 5th times I charm eh? not. I hate my life.

Today, I once again tried to stop cutting myself.. its not the easiest thing to do.. especially when the scars just remind you of it.. I dont think this is possible, alot of people just end up killing themselves after self injury.. Ive really thought about it, Im not ready to die, 13 years isnt enough, but If I wasnt so young, Im sure I would have killed myself by now.

Today, I thought over my "death plan" with ricky.. his seemed so peaceful why mine was so.. violent o_O, no Im not killing myself, but If I ever did.. well now I know how Id do it.. I thought about something peaceful.. but Im like, the type who goes out with a "BANG".. something that would make them regret things they did to me, or regret how they treated others.. or maybe something heroic that everyone would remember. I dont know.